When lifes got you down....

These kids will cheer you up!

Ricky Chiappetta

Ricky,

My kiddos adored you, my family loved you like their own, you stood next to my brother with a smile on your face as he said, "I do" two weeks ago, you always thought of others first, you made car rides from College Station to Temple so fun and entertaining, you always asked people sincerely how they were doing, you were third wheel ALWAYS with Ty and Shannon and they never ever minded, you made our hearts smile....

Rick Joseph Chiappetta was killed head on in a car accident today on his way to Sam Houston State University. The driver that hit him feel asleep at the wheel. Ricky stood at Tyler's side at his wedding on Sept. 11th 2010 and I can still see his smile when the exchanged the words, "I do". He had such a loving heart and always thought of others. Today we mourn Ricky.....to see both my brothers heart ache I wish there was more that I could do. Ricky was always there for my family and he will be greatly missed.

Sweet Noelle

Sneak Peek of a little angel!

little brown footprints

Allen has this thing about "boys airing out" so this morning Reese was airing out and was running around diaperless. We take this opportunity to talk about the potty and what goes in the potty hoping that Reese will get it and go teetee or potty in there. Allen took Ginny to school since this morning has been pretty chaotic. We got a continuous call at 5:20AM from a dallas number and after calling back 2 times we found out that it was just a wrong number. We were ALL up and wide awake and had settle back in to sleep which was soooo hard. SO, needless to say, we didnt ALL wake up until 8:30AM and Ginny has to be at school at 9AM, NICE! So, it was like a scene from Home Alone around here were we are all yelling and trying to get everyone out of the door.

In the morning, Reese watches a show and I check my emails, facebook, blogger etc. He ran into the playroom that is off our kitchen and I heard him coloring on the chalkboard. Remember the AIRING out thing, yeah, well I should have known. Well, he came to me and was saying, "yuck" and pointing to his foot. I checked the TOP of his foot and everything seemed ok and he ran to keep playing in his playroom.

I saw him running into the living room where his potty was and thought to myself, "He is gonna do this and I will get the Mommy of the Year award for teaching my son to be potty trained before TWO". Then, I heard PLOP PLOP PLOP and Reese was standing up.........Then, with such excitement he raised his hands and said, "I DID IT". See...he picked up his poop and ran into the living room to PLACE it into the potty and to little Reese, mission was accomplished. It took 2 seconds to look down and see little poop foot prints everywhere! Footprints and plops of poop covered the hallway and carpet. But, atleast Reese DID IT!!! hahahaha!!! SO cute, but this Mommy is thinking that we will wait for potty training for a couple of months since cleaning up this morning was an hour project. I would have taken pictures but none of my friends would want to have their girls date Reese because it was such a disaster.....so think of little brown footprints and there you go!

HAPPY THURSDAY!!!!

Better when we're together.....

The hardest time for me is when Ginny is at school and Reese is home with me. He misses his sister sooo much! Even though they fight every 2 seconds when they are both at home it beats the "where is Ginny" all day long from Reese. He adores his sister and she adores him. You would never think this as they tend to scream, bite, hit, and take from each other. Deep down I know that they could not live without one another. Here are some random pics that I found on my computer that I took.....I love when they dont know I am watching~

Reese with my camera

Ginny is at school=Reese is bored=Mommy can't get anything done!

Here is Reese....I set the timer on my camera and these are the faces he captured! What a silly little guy!

12 weeks and 5 days

(I LOOK ROUGH, just rolled out of bed and took this in Ginny's bathroom...dont judge!)

I am nearing the 13 week and I feel GREAT except for a little nausea here and there! SOOOO much better than where I was four weeks ago. YUCK! That was ROUGH! I still take my Zofran every morning to make sure the nausea stays away. The baby is almost the size of a peach, according to Babycenter.com, and looks just like a human! I find out on Oct. 6th, if it is a BOY or GIRL! I am soooo excited about this since the shopping and planning can begin! I eat ALL THE TIME and cannot get enough....this all started week 12. I cannot wait to watch my belly GROW GROW GROW~

Baby girl names??

Mini Session!

Depending on the amount of inquiries, I will travel to Dallas, Central Texas and of course, Houston without any addition travel fee. If you have an interest, please email me so we can talk about times/dates etc. I would like to do all these session in the next three months as I will not be booking very many sessions in the month of December! I am booking up fast for the rest of 2010!

They aren't lying when they say "boys are harder to train". Ginny came to us and wanted to wear panties and have NOTHING to do with diapers. Reese on the other hand has used the potty as a pony, bath for his figurines and a place to throw his sisters barbies. I HAVE to get this kid out of diapers before Baby #3......prayers needed all around!

Oh, Pumpkin Spice Latte

Why is it that as soon as this delicious treat hits the menu at Starbucks that Fall officially starts in my mind. Football is on TV, you bring your sweatshirt out (even though it is 90 degrees), the scents of Fall are scattered all over your home in the form of Tyler Candles or in your Scentsy burner, you start browsing to see what the latest and greatest fashions will be this Fall, you bring out the tall boots in anticipation to pair them with a cute pair of skinny jeans with a baggy sweater, the Halloween costume catalogs cram your mailbox, you search Foodnetwork.com for recipes of stew, pumpkin bread, baked goods, you enjoy nights on the couch with your family just because Fall is normally associated with tons of snuggles, life slows down and you savor the little moments......

ALL BECAUSE THE PUMPKIN SPICE LATTE HITS THE MENU AT STARBUCKS........FALL HAS OFFICIALLY BEGUN!

Blame it on the Rain

Labor Day 2010....it rains in The Woodlands. Bummer, but my kids are sure cute as they listen/watch/count the raindrops.

my week in pictures

Lately......

So many new and exciting things happening in our home!

Ginny-

Ginny LOVES her school, Kids of the Kingdom in the Woodlands! She has met some fabulous friends and everyday she has the biggest smile on her face! Ginny is my child that LOVES homework, loves to read, loves to learn so everyday that she goes to KOK (Tues, Wednes and Thurs) she is super excited. I barely get a kiss when she walks in the door because she has morning duties to take care of.....put her folder up, backpack up etc....she is so responsible it is just crazy! So responsible that tonight she gave me a HUGE hug and said, "thank you Mommy for teaching me how to organize...I love to organize." How funny is that?! She spent her Sunday evening organizing her jewelry box, her bow drawer and even helped Mommy clean out her closet to make room for Fall things! WOW! I just love a girl with organization! We went to Container Store and stocked up on fun things for organizing and had a blast. Where were my two boys when this was taken place??! They were downstairs playing soccer and messing up the house. Clearly, the girls and boys in this household are COMPLETELY different! Other than that, she wants a sister sooooooo bad that I dont know WHAT she is going to do if she has a little bother...I mean brother. ha! It was so cute because tonight we went through all her clothes and she made a stack to give to her sister. Bless her heart! We will tackle this obstacle if it is a boy, but until then in Ginny's little mind the Rosenbaum house will be ruled by PINK come March 2011.

Reese-

He is ALL BOY!!!!!!!!!! Like, play in the dirt, messy face, wants to be naked all the time...BOY! He has a low voice and growls at everything! He is difficult to take out to eat, difficult to put in his car seat, difficult to change a diaper..DIFFICULT! BUT, I LOVE it! I love his little challenges and I love that everyday he brings something new to our family. We work best when challenged and Reese is just that! He adores football, LOVES Yo Gabba Gabba and loves to run run run! He also is going to the same school as Ginny but only one day a week. I am THAT parent that is emailing/calling/begging etc for an extra day. One day a week, really?!! He LOVES school as well and it my heart melt the other day when I picked him up and he was dressed as a fireman! HOW CUTE! He loves his "friends" and everytime he leaves he says, BYE FRIENDS! I have been stopped by hundreds of people asking how old he was since he talks like a three year old. I mean, the kid...TALKS..no babble, no one words...he is sentences! Here are some of Reese's favorite phrases.

" I want (fill in the blank)" but it is normally, milk, Wubbie, Yo Gabi, eat.

"GOOOOO FOOTBALL"

"GigEm Aggies"

"I'll get it"

"Be right back"

"Eat, please"

"Shake your booty" (learned this from the song)

"Mommy, I am Nakie"...yes, he LOVES being naked and sharing it to the world!

The kid can point to anything and name it...for example here are some of the crazy things he can identify:

Giraffe

Soccer Ball

Butterfly, bee, ant

Potty (ha, this one cracks me up because he knows all about it but wont use it!)

Other kids dirty diapers (he says," Mommy...ushie", and points at other kids

Computer

Anything food related...he knows em all

Church

I cannot even think right now of the others but Reese is constantly talking. He says phrases that normal little ones dont say and it trips people out! I must say that NO we dont work with him on words...he gets it all from Ginny! Ginny and Reese carry on full conversations and it is so adorable.

Baby #3-

I am almost 12 weeks and thank the Lord that I am almost through this first trimester. I have been sooooo soooo sick. I would throw up like every other day and then for a week every other hour and then now it is slowing down to a couple times a week but I am always nauseas! I dont have time to stop and rest....I just keep going! I have thrown up in grocery stores, on the side of the road, hotel bathrooms, preschool bathrooms, you name it! I just get it down and keep going! I cannot say, "Kids, mommy is sick today so I am just gonna lay in bed all day." NOPE. Doesnt work! Did I mention I LOVE LOVE Zofran!?!?!! It really has helped out a lot!!!! What a miracle drug for Mommys that have morning sickness. We heard the heartbeat the on Sept. 2nd and all is well...measured at 175 BPM. Seems really high but the doc said that baby is very healthy! It looks like my due date is more like March 24th but we all know that I have it embedded in my mind that my babies dont go full term. Like, I will harass the doc to get that baby out two weeks before! Mark.My.Words.... I am not a natural birthing person, I think medicines, epidurals, IVs are there for people like me so I should use them to the greatest effect! Baby #3....we love you already and cannot wait til Oct. 6th when I find out BOY or GIRL!!

Of course, the night is getting late so Allen, sweetie...I love you and sorry I am not writing a paragraph about you! There is nothing really excited other than that we are super excited for fall, football, holidays and baby appointments!

Did I mention my baby brother, Tyler is getting married this weekend!??!!!! I cannot believe this BUT Shannon and Ty are adorable together! I cannot wait to share pics with you from the weekend!!!! We have 6 days til the big day!!

Saltines and Sprite

Today I have my first ultrasound!!! WOOHOO! I dont know how far along I am BUT I think it is somewhere around 7 or 8 weeks.

This pregnancy is soooo different already! I wake up feeling sick, go to bed feeling sick, wake up in the middle of the night feeling sick.....it is just awful! I live on BLAND....SALTINES AND SPRITE taste like HEAVEN these days! Everyone keeps saying that it means I am having a healthy pregnancy BUT I dont think about that when I am barfing my brains out. I remember feeling so bad for Shelby Jacobs...she was super super sick and I kept thinking, "POOR SHELBY". BUT, I have a feeling this little person in me (and yes, I am talking singular..not double...we will know more at 2:00Pm) will give me a RUN FOR MY MONEY!

If everything looks good I think I might share the news. I cannot keep a secret and I am not going to wait until 12-14 weeks...that is too hard for me to do.

I will blog and post a pic of Little RosieToes number 3 this afternoon!

Walgreens Trip

Sooooooo...... I was on the phone with Allen and I got to the check out counter. I had these items in hand.

M&Ms........Cookies and a pregnancy test...........nice combo! ha! Did anyone else take one more test just to make sure AFTER they found out they were pregnant!? The thing about pregnancy is that YOU HAVE NO CONTROL and must have FAITH! God knows this is my weakest attribute....not having control! I am praying for patience during this time!

Oh, yea....it was POSITIVE again! :)

......and then there were 5!

We are excited to announce that another little Rosenbaum will fill love in our home! We are expecting a little one come March!

OK, OK, I am still in shock and thought I would post this as a 'draft" and wait to publish it until I get the affirmation from my doctor, Dr. Westmoreland! I took a pregnancy test on July 14, 2010 and it was a big positive. Allen, for what ever reason, does not trust the line test so I went out and bought a digital test. Again, it said PREGNANT! I waited for him to get home, looked at the test and it was BLANK!!!! ugh! So, I had to do another digital test and folks, those things aren't cheap! Again, PREGNANT! :) I went today, July 16th, to get blood work done and to get on prenatals and such! It looks like I am only about 5 weeks and will wait til about 8-9 weeks to start telling people.

We are all excited! Ginny asked over and over what that "stick" was so we explained to her what was going on! I know it is early, but Ginny is like my best little buddy and I had to tell her about our new family adventure! When I told her about a baby she said the following-

"Mommy, I think we should just call the baby a SHE and think up some girl names...."

"I think I like the names Alice and Kyla best".......obviously she LOVES Alice and Wonderland and got the name Kyla from one of Brooks' friends! ha!

"I cannot wait for you to pump again"- this threw me off because I exclusively nursed Reese for 13 months and used the pump maybe 10 times! Ha! I guess she thinks that little contraption is a nifty one!

I will be drafting posts along the way and hope to share the news soon! I hate secrets and if I could I would share with the world right now......but better safe than sorry!

UGH!

I am so disgusted with myself and not updating my blog. Is it bad that I check everyone else's and when I go to hit POST on mine....I have nothing to say, or the kids need my attention, or I have to edited pics, or my house needs picking up or the timer goes off.....I am just disgusted that I dont have enough time to do anything these days. I want this to be a place that I share all of Ginny and Reese's accomplishments, pictures, cute sayings, etc! But I am failing in the blogging world. Blogging is called blogging because it is something you should do regularly and clearly, I fail at being a blogger. Therefore, here is a letter to my kids....I feel it is necessary since Mother's Day is right around the corner.

Reesers and GinGin,

I might be busy with all that is going on but my love for you won't ever stop. In fact, my favorite pictures that I have ever "taken" are stored in my mind....little memories I will never forget. I hardly pick up the camera when yall are around because A) you hate the camera and B) I want to always make sure that I have two hands so that I give you a big huge, or a helpful hand, or a hand to hold. (We all know my camera has its own bag, its own set of rules and isnt an easy gadget to carry around)

I make tons of mistakes, and sometimes I fail. At night I always think to myself, "I should have done this with them today, or I should have read that book over again slowly, or I should have squeezed them tighter". Then I am reminded that failing is OK and that God forgives us when we fail. And for that....I am grateful! I want to spend every waking second with you two....I want to hold you both in my laps forever and watch reruns of Disney movies over and over (ok, I might be going a little far with the movie thing, but I want the snuggles). I have amazing friends that blog about every word, accomplishment, weight, height, favorite food their kids have and I am AMAZED of their commitment to documenting everything. I am amazed and well, jealous, actually.

Reese, right now, you dont have a baby book. Why you ask?? It is hard for me to put all your pictures, memories of your first year in one little book when I all I have are 3 pictures of your sister's first year. I would do ANYTHING to be able to show Ginny baby pictures, her first crawl, her first tooth, her first bottle.... I wish I could have have 2 minutes of when she was a baby to hear what her cries sounded like and what her skin felt like. I just feel bad having a shrine of pictures for you, Reese and none for Ginny. I will make a baby book for you and Ginny will have a book of her own....BUT, right now I am enjoying the memories in the making!

One thing I know, is that my love for you is, well, there are no words. I shower a little faster, I wear less makeup, my clothes might not match all because I want to rush down the stairs to play with you. I want to be there when you fail, be there when fall and pick you up.......I cannot be your Rock, you have Jesus for that, but I can be your guiding light!

I want your love for Christ to be out of this world. I want you to find a friend in Jesus and I want you to personally know him. I want you to pray for one another and the Lord knows I need you to pray for me! I want you to experience a life where your heart burns for worship and your light shines so that others might know how great He is! I want you to feel proud of your God that you can drop on your knees when your friends need prayer and I want you to pray outloud with others. I want Jesus to live in your heart and I want the world to see his grace through you. Daddy and I will do our best to guide you in His path........just know we are learning right along with you of how FABULOUS Jesus is!!!

So happy Mother's Day.......this day will be a celebration for me not OF me.....I have the two greatest munchkins in the world and that is why I am a mother. Reese and Ginny...I love you!

I love you more than the moon and the stars.

(then Ginny normally says) I love you more than the trees and grass.

I love you more than every thing!

Mommy

My wilderness children

Everyone has been soooo kind to ask, "how are the children adjusting??"....Well, they have become so interested in nature, dirt, birds, trees, you name it! Our backyard is great for them to explore and play. I literally open the door in the morning and they go and go all day out in their backyard. I can see them through the big windows and we normally leave the sliding door wide open! I can hear them both imagining, singing and laughing. It is the best sound along side the birds chirping in the background! We love the Woodlands, it is treating us well....Thank you for asking!

They find sticks, rocks, leaves and even dead animals..I know, sick!!!

They are dirty about 80% of the time......

And always up to something....

And the best part, all the dirt comes off with some fun in the sink!! :)

What do my kiddos do while I edit??

Editing takes F.O.R.E.V.E.R!!! But I love it! I love getting creative and I love photography! But, sometimes my kids HATE IT! They want my attention (this might be why I dont get some pics down as fast as I want) Some days, they are great....they play play play. Other days it gets REAL BAD.....like the day Reese erased all of Brooks Ruggiano's forehead and I had to "put him back together" VERY TEDIOUS and FRUSTRATING. So, in our new home we have a great downstairs play room right off the kitchen. I can sit and edit while they play!!!! YAY!!!! The only drawback is when they see me, they want me. (You know, "out of sight, out of mind"...ugh) So until then, I will enjoy the small increments during the day to get caught up on editing!

Copper Sage Park

This park is located 0.4 miles from our house. YOu see, the difference between Frisco and the Woodlands is the parks, trail, nature, ponds, etc. It amazes me that sooo many people live here yet you go to a park and it is so serene and calm. We found a little playground and had fun there but as soon as Ginny laid eyes on the pond both her and Reese made a MAD DASH! The weather is wonderful here, about 73 degrees and muggy (welcome to Houston). They started to throw things in the water which led to taking off their shoes and getting a little dirty. Reese almost fell in the pond about 10 times and Ginny threw every stick in the water. It was just the three of us- no one around. The wind blew and Ginny looked up in the ski and said, "Thank you Wind"....she too understands that our new home is a muggy home. Reese could have submerged his whole body in the water....he loved it! I cannot wait for pool weather...my kids are ready to get wet and splash around.

This little moment between my two babies is what life is all about! Last night while watching TV (Molly and Jason's Wedding from the Bachelor) Ginny said that she wanted to marry Reese since he was her best friend. MELT.MY.HEART....... and this picture describes her love for her little brother. I am soo thankful that I have a daughter that loves her pesky little brother....Reason number 23,999 why I thank God every day for placing her in my heart!

We are home, taking naps and I am cleaning up from our outing. I think Copper Sage Park will be a new little stop for us!

Out of our comfort zone

I cannot believe how long it has been since I have posted! SOOOOO much has happened and between photography and Allen's job, I am just plain tired!

Allen took a job in North Houston, he has the territory of Tomball, North Cypress, The Woodlands and Conroe. SO, we chose to live in the Woodlands since it was most like Frisco. He left Stryker and now works for Depuy Spine. This opportunity could be BIG.....so, we took it! :) Allen is AMAZING at what he does......he works soooo hard and I am sooo excited to see what this job brings our little family! There is 88 million untouched business with Spine here in Houston so Allen is gonna go rock it and get all that business...I just know it!! With a lot of hard work and patience good things will happen to our family. We are blessed that God provides and gave us this amazing chance to better our family!

Am I overwhelmed, Yes! You have no idea. In a weeks time, Allen excepted a job, we found a house and moved 5 days later. On top of that, I have 4 photo shoots and two crazy kids wanting all my attention! :) We work well under pressure and although I am stressed I know that I will get through it. I take longer breaths these days, I stop and take it all in....that is all you can do!

We are pretty much settled. Our home is adorable! It is smaller than our last house BUT it accomodates us so much better. We have a HUGE yard with a good sized deck...and the great thing about The Woodlands, TREES TREES TREES!!! It is beautiful here! Today after I ventured to HEB I drove around the sweet town.....ponds, lakes, nature, flowers, trees, fresh air...WOW....God had a plan for our family...he took us out of our comfort zone and placed us in a little paradise city! I am sure we will enjoy long walks on these amazing trails!!!

We loved Frisco, we loved Dallas and still do BUT in life you have to take chances. For a month, Allen and I sat in prayer over where we should go, what was right for our family and where God wanted us to be. This job popped up and we knew it was the answer. God's timing is EVERYTHING. Everything has worked out for us, Ginny's adoption, Reese's birth and now this. All we have to do is have faith. I have no friends here, I dont know a soul but I have my little family and my faith and that is all I need to get by!

Life's a Beach

Just when you think you are stressed, tired, anxious, overwhelmed and scared....you have the beach, yes the Beach House makes my crazy life a little less crazy!

Riding in Cars with Boys...I mean, Reese!

My son is such a BOY! He adores cars!! He rolls them on everything saying, VROOM, VROOM!!! Allen and I are not into our cars......as long as it has a TV and can get us to point A to point B we are happy. Reese, on the other hand, is very opinionated over his cars....he likes a specific red and green one. Ginny and Reese sometimes play cars together which is sooo cute! He is definitely showing his personality and his imagination. At the end of the day, he goes to bed with a car in each hand....Reese simply loves cars!

Some things THIS Momma Cannot live without

My life is chaotic...seriously! When you have a active four year old, a toddler (15 months) and a new business you are try to get up and running life seems a little crazy at times. Every second I try to enjoy, breathe and dont sweat the small stuff.....AND, I am lucky that I have a great husband and amazing family support!

WHAT THIS MOMMA CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT:

1. My housekeeper (they come every other week....until this month, I think I am going to have to UP the frequency)

2. My gym membership (a little workout is the best way to get re energized for the day)

3. My God (His faith and trust gets me through) ...AND NO, my housekeeper and gym membership arent MORE important than my Heavenly Father.... He rules my life these days!

3. Starbucks (I LOVE me some Nonfat, 2 equal Tazo Chai)

4. Photoshop CS4...EDITING IS MY LIFE these days!!

5. The Crock Pot....(God's gift to a busy mom!)

6. Diet Coke!!!!

7. Reality TV...good laughs, I am a sucker!

8. My church, Preston Trail Community Church....

9. Ginny's trampoline...she goes outside and jumps for hours...best babysitter

10. My Dyson Vaccuum.. I have a 80 pound white lab...enough said.

11. Chic Fil A (my kids are IN LOVE)

12. Soy Milk (My son has killer poops when he drinks regular milk...Lactose issues)

13. My metabolism (for the way I eat...I should be 300 pounds)

14. Veggies and Hummus (a quick fix for my kids for any snack)

15. Vinegar Windex (this house needs it everyday)

16. Pacifiers for my teething boy

17. My Massage Envy membership (I got this from Allen...one massage a month is Heaven...in fact, I am going tonight at 8pm)

18. My families beach house in Port A...HEAVEN ON EARTH

19. My parents....I dont know what I would do with out them

20. The Bullet Food Processor...when things are too big for the kids to eat..CHOP CHOP CHOP!!

21. Kristin Webber (if I need anything she is there for me!)

22. WIPES (my son POOPS non stop and he is a boy..messy face city)

23. Blogger..to document my kids and all that they do

24. Yoga ( every Wednesday at 10AM...I need it!)

25. HOW COULD I FORGET...My Nikon D300, it is my third child!

26. Bread to feed the ducks every day when we take our walks

27. Prozac, Xanax...(totally kidding....I am not on these things..thought it would be funny though)

28. My Scentsy candle to trick Allen into thinking I cleaned (I stick in Lemongrass and it smells like a clean home)

29. XM Radio, The Message....God touches my heart in the car when I am about to go insane!

30. My husband....

31. Adoption...or we wouldnt have a prissy four year old diva

32. Reese, sometimes...haha..totally kidding..love this little stinker

33. a nice glass of wine in the PM....

I am Blessed beyond words....not everyday is easy, I have a short temper and I am trying to work on that. God has a plan for our family and we shall see what that entails. Our lives are about to change (if all goes as planned) and I am nervous as can be....But, I certainly have Faith...something I definitely Cannot Live Without.

Miss Chloe Photo Shoot

WARNING: This girl is REAL, she isn't a doll, she is REAL!!!

I had sooo much fun meeting Lauren Newby and her sweet daughter, Chloe. Her eyes, her lips, everything....the girl is PERFECT!!!! We listened to one her favorite songs, "Dancing Queen" during the shoot....so cute! Thank you Newby's for sharing your little princess with me!!

First Haircut

I am so funny about milestones. I love watching my kids experience new things and since I stay at home with these crazy cats, I get to watch everything in action.

But, today......

I let Allen enjoy a milestone all by himself. I let him make the decision on Reese's crazy hair. On the phone he said he wanted to shave the sides and make it a TRUE mohawk. I was enjoying "Ellen" and almost closed my eyes for a bit until this news. He reassured me everything would be OK, and well, I trusted him.